What do you envy?

So yes I know it has been a while.. everytime I sat down to blog, my mind went blank. I tried to take inspiration from others blogs and news and events going on.. but I just couldn't get started with even just one word. But as I sit here tonight, I have a bazillion thoughts in my head. Just like you let stuff pile up, well my mind is piled up.
The thing I started to think about today, was how much I say Im jealous of something. For example, I posted something today on Facebook about being jealous of though who were getting the snow in the midwest. ( I love the snow, and vow to live somewhere where I get to enjoy it all winter.. Ramon doenst know this plan yet LOL ) But with the snow, comes the cold. And the more snow, the bigger the problems. Me? I just see the pretty white snow and dont pay attention to all of the lower problems it brings. Because I dont want to see that, I just want to see the outer of it.
I think that is true in most cases of jealousy. What we see may be grand, but we dont see the problems that go along with it. After all, we wouldnt be jealous of it then , now would we?
Lets say, for example, you pass houses, saying to yourself, I would really love to live in a place like that. What you may now know, is that the people living there may be in great debt. They may not be a family in sorts. They could live a shallow life full of nothing but possessions like the house, their brand new car and new in style clothing. But we dont see that. All we see is the pretty house, the brand new car and the clothes we wish we could afford and look that good in. Are they really that happy? Would it be worth giving up what you have just to have those material things? I may not have the grandest home, but inside is a loving family who makes this house a home. I have a house and a car and clothes. And while they may not seem like big fancy things to some, they are my fancy things. I am grateful to have them. I look at it this way, there are people without homes, without cars and without clothes. So the ordinary things to me, are huge to other people. And then it goes from that. When you are the bottom and all you can do is look up, then anything seems grand to you.
Then you have those millionaries that want to be billionaires. Money is not an option and they can get whatever they want whenever they want. It doenst matter if it sacrfices someone elses happiness or not. But those people are never satisfied. They only live to want more. That mansion is all nice until someone you know gets one bigger then its like an all out fight to keep up and do betther the rest of their life. Who exactly are they trying to prove? Is someone sitting alone in a 15 bedroom house, really all that happy? We may think money would make us happy but in the long run. no.
It has only taken me 30 years to really see this. Of course, we all could use and want more money, each for our own reasons. But when is enough enough? When can we say, I am satisfied and happy. It takes people too many years to get to that point. But in this world, no one can blame them. Jealousy is an evil that takes over lives way too often. I know it floods my thoughts much to often during the day. You may think jealousy doenst lead to any hard, but think of it like this.
Jealousy is that of a husband that looks in the mirror and sees gray hair, debt and 3 screaming kids with one on the way. He sees a mini van and a wife who doenst look quite like she did when they got married. He sees his Friday nights being spent at school functions, and Saturday nights the same. The one day he can enjoy watching tv and football may come on a Sunday afternoon but that is only after his wife drags him to church. And now that football game he wanted to watch has now been replaced by the sounds of cartoons. He goes to get ont he computer only to find the kids fussing over who gets to play next. He yells at his wife but she is too busy yelling at him to help around the house some, and doesnt that grass need mowing? Maybe he can find some peace outside... but the mower runs over toys that were left out in the yard. When does the cycle end? He comes in just to have to give the children a bath and maybe then he can have some alone time, not with this wife, just with him. But hes interrupted as his wife is yelling at him to come to bed or else. He rolls into bed just long enough for the next day to start over. Then off to work at a job he hates but has to have. But something is different. There is a new young woman that has started her first day where he works. She is young, pretty and his eyes full of life. Something he feels he has been drained of. They talk. They have lunch and he starts to become jealous of her life. She can go home and watch whatvever tv she wants, she can lounge around in silence. So he starts to fantisize and every night he goes home, his thoughts of this other woman and life, start to take over his life. She invites him over one night. He makes up some story and goes, even though his gut is telling him not to. But its quiet, there are no kids, there is no nagging wife. There are no chores. He gives in and after a while, all seems quite right with the world. Then she finds about the marriage, then his wife finds out who in return kicks him to the curb. He has it made right? He can go home to silence. He can go home and finally watch those sporting events he has longed to watch. He can get onto his labtop. He can go to bed whenever he wants and he even doesnt have to mow his own lawn. But then he starts to look in the mirror in the mornings, and in his reflection he not only sees gray hair but thats all he sees. At least at his old house, he would see gray hair and maybe kids and his wife in the reflection. The silence seems to eat at him now. He longs for the cartoons and the kids fussing. He goes to bed early now only to sleep beside an empty pillow and cold sheets. What happened? He goes to see his kids and his wife still doesnt look the like the woman he married, only prettier. He doesnt hear the kids fussing and screaming anymore, only their laughs and giggles ring through the air. And those cartoons, well they are sort of funny. He threw all of this away?? Yea because he was jealous.
So see?? While this may be a huge dramatic example, you see where I am going!! So be happy with what you have and what God had blessed you with.I am here. I am alive and God has given me a chance at life and thats the way I look at it. And while, yes a little bit of me is still jealous of the kids playing in the snow, I can hope!

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