Who would you have supper with?

I have sit here morning after morning starting at this blank screen trying to think about something to blog about.  Then as I was watching tv someone asked the question, who would you have supper with dead or alive if you could choose. And you can only name 5. I thought this would be an easy question to answer and I was sure I would problems simplifying my list but my mind went blank. Was it bad that I couldnt think of 5 people much less I couldnt think of one! My mind was struggling but not one name popped up. The other sad thing was I could think of more people who I would NOT want to have supper with. 

The more I thought about it the more confused I got and so it was when I didnt think about it that I started coming up with names. So this list is not in order and it was not thought out so no judging. believe me I judged myself! LOL.

Oh yea and the reasons.. well I will give you the first reason that popped in my head and I hope its sufficient.. =)

1. Idina Menzel.... Not because of Glee but because of her career on broadway. And while some of her roles are not the best examples ( Rent.. she was great ) her voice is unbelievable. And the fact she has a family as well makes me smile. I follow her on Twitter and I love seeing her and Taye Diggs tweets back and forth and how much she loves her career and her family. To be able to have both is a dream and a dream of mine. I cant wait to see where her career goes!

2. Tom Hanks... I have always respected him as an actor and a person. I also love the fact that he such a family man. And that he seems to be such a down to earth man. His work in his movies blows me away sometimes and again, I cant wait to see where he is in years to come. He still has whole life ahead of him!

3. Natalie Grant... She is my all time favorite singer and songwriter. Her song " Held " became my life anthem when I was going through a divorce. The way she writes emotions into her songs and her words strike me everytime. It takes a lot for me to hear song over and over again and have my emotions go into a wreck. And yes that song has a personal connection but even then, all of her songs make me smile. And thats exactly what we all need in a world like this.

4. George W. Bush... By far my favorite President and without getting into politics I will leave it there. But he def deserves to be higher than number 4.

5. My husbands dad... He passed away years ago. Now while the relationship between him and Ramon may not have been peachy keen he still needs to know what kind of man Ramon grew up to be. And for that fact, he needs to know how all of children grew up. While I wish I could sit here and say their relationship was perfect at the time of his death, I cant. This is not my story to tell but I will say that out of all the people on this list, he may be number 1. I like to think that he knows what sort of man Ramon is. I would tell him that Ramon is every bit of a husband that God wants him to be. And that through everything, Ramon has been my rock. I cant imagine how hard is to begin a relationship with someone who has been through a rough divorce and has a child. But it was like he saw past all of that. He came into my life when I needed him the most. Besides a great husband, he is a great man. He loves, he cares. And he is great step father to Drew. These are the things he needs to know.

A Year Has Gone Past...

Well almost a year. I think it was July 28 actually. The day I was admitted to the hospital and began fighting for my life. When that happens to you, your perspective on life and everything changes dramatically. It really didn't it me until the other day when Ramon bought it up. But I do do things differently. My priorities have changed. My outlook has changed. The way I live and love have changed. And its hard. People dont get it. People looking in see my house as a mess and cluttered but I see it as time I have spent with my family. And no matter how much I try to convince some people of that, they just dont get it. 
Time with people have changed. When you realize you could have lost it all, you suddenly want it all back and every second counts. And then when someone tells you you are acting dumb for wanting to spend time with someone, its just like you dont get it. So as I sit here with MY family tonight, I remember what is important. I remember I have a place where people love me and dont judge me for how I live or what I want to do. Its a horrible feeling to not be able to share everything good in your life because someone will be there to find one negative thing about it and keep reminding you about it. I dont have time to have that in my life nor do I feel like I need it. Luckily my husband and son are always here to remind me of that. 
Its just been a really hard week. I got home after an amazing service at church and felt like I could kick this week in the butt but it somehow has fallen apart like always. The one good thing is that my sister and her family are in and that has helped. Even if I have gotten to spend a short amount of time with them, it has been time well spent. I dont get to see them very often and since I dont have a job, I like to take the opportunity to see them before they go home. They have such busy lives in GA that its hard for them to get away. And they have so many friends and family here that I think they are just as busy here as they are at home if not busier running around. Like I said, even though its a short time, at least its some time. 
If I have learned anything this past year its that you have to live your life the way you want it and the way that God has planned it out to be. If following him means putting other stuff on hold that do it. Petty stuff that filled your heart and life before shouldnt be there. And most of all, I have learned that with God and my family, I can get through anything. Thanks to everyone who ever said a prayer for me this past year. Its been hard and I hope it just gets easier from here. With me going back to school and Drew starting school and money issues as always and praying for a job, it is still hard. But I pray God guides us through it. Somehow we still have a house and 2 cars and the electric and water has been on for more than a month now finally. We are struggling but I know the only person that can help is God. We have depended on him so much and still do. He gave me a son 5 years ago and a husband almost 3 years ago and I am forever grateful to say that I have never been closer to him than I am right now. I look forward to the future and again.. thanks everyone for coming along the ride with me=)