For some reason, praying has been on my mind heavily lately. I know it is something that should be on your mind but it has really hit home for me the last couple of weeks. When you " google " the word prayer.. all of this stuff comes up. I was trying to find a definition to put on here but I just wasnt satisfied. Its so long and complicated. To me prayer is simply talking to God. Something, Im sure, all of us could more of. Im guilty as charged because it something in my life that I definitely need and want to work on. With everything that has went on in the last few months and now being pregnant, I think I should.
My point is though, we shouldnt just pray in the hard times or when we or someone else needs something. We should praise him when our life seems to be doing okay. But for me, its just like when something else goes bad, I start praying. And on the days everything seems to be going good, I hardly even mutter a thank you. I should praise him everyday for just bringing me through what he did but then again I should pray every day. Once again, it shouldnt have taken something like that to make me want to pray.
Prayers are powerful and I will fight with anyone who tells me they arent. I wonder, on that first night I was in the hospital, how many prayers were being said. And not even on that first night but the whole time. Withou my faith and their prayers, I honestly dont know if I would even be sitting here right now. Prayers do work. For both the good and the bad. I tend to forget the feeling I get after I get done talking with God. If I am asking for strength, its just like this calmness comes over me and I know it is him with me.
The other thing I was thinking about was how many times do we tell someone we will pray for them and then we just brush it off? It seems to be common answer to anyone who is going through something tough. Whether we say it to them or their family or write in a card, its always like " My thoughts and prayers are with you during this time " Im guilty as the next person but I like to think that when I tell someone that, the least I can do is do it. I mean all of these people prayed for me so I know it works. I never doubted it but until you actually experience it, it doesnt really hit home.
Let me explain myself... I pray. I pray almost every day. I pray for me, my family, my friends and our country ( especially with the election coming up ) Prayer works in all different ways. I remember going through my divorce and feeling completely alone and just talking to God and I could almost feel his hand on me assuring me it was going to be okay. The same with everything else I have went through. Its THOSE times when I was like, wow.... you really are there. This may be coming out wrong but the best way I can explain it is.. I know God is with us each and every day through the good AND the bad. And I hate that it takes some people bad times to realize that praying is really important and a great way to build you relationship with God. But just like people say that they live one day a time and live like they are dying because they have almost died, prayer sort of goes that way. But it shouldnt be like that. We all should live each and every day to our fullest and talk to God and praise him for what he has done in our lives. And even if you have lived a perfect life, God has provided that for you. You wouldnt take something good from a stranger without telling them thank you would you?
Each day we live is a gift from God. We should use the gifts he has provided for us and thank him every day for what he did for us. He gave his only son. Sometimes saying thank you just doesnt seem like enough.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
BoO!!!!
I never understood the point to Halloween movies... all they ever did for me was not so much give me nightmares but made me scared to even leave the bed I was in or the couch I was on. I can remember many nights running from the couch to my bed and covering my head in quilt just so I could get to sleep. I am a chicken when it comes to stuff like that, I will admit it.
I really just dont like the unexpected. Give me a movie of nothing but gore and I can handle it but give me a movie where people jump out all of the time and I lose it. I always joked and said someone could make a movie, with nothing but ordinary people, like you and me, in plain clothes and just have them jumping out behind things and I would scream. I guarantee you I would have a hard time getting out of my bed in the middle of the night without looking around and swearing I hear things in the house. Too bad my bladder makes me get up at the moment!
I think I am just too analytical when it comes to some of these movies. People always told me that you should be scared of the ones that could really happen and not the ones that are stupid but indeed scare me the most of all. You cant tell me that doll running around with a kitchen knife and kills people isnt going to scare you. The first time I even saw a scene from that was when I was little. It was sort of by accident. All of those shows come on around Halloween and I think I must have been flipping channels and there was it. And I actually remember having a conversation with my Kid Sister doll at the time. ( At this point, I did not know that the Chucky doll was based off the My Buddy doll, who I am guessing was Kid Sisters brother) I remember picking her up and telling her how much I loved playing with her but if she was going to kill me or anyone else, I would not be like that little kid. I would not continue to be her friend and I would have to do away with her. I dont think I ever played with her again after that night. And to come think about it. that may have given a doll reason to come to life... ooh Im glad I wasnt that smart back then!
And while we are on the stupidness of movies, why do people when getting chased always go to the one part of the house they cant escape. If I saw someone coming at me, my butt would be out that door and gone! I dont think I would go upstairs or into a closet or in a bathroom or downstairs where I couldnt get out. Thats what I mean by being too analytical. I just scream at the people for not thinking about it before they start to run. No matter where you hide, they are going to find you. And they are not going to have sympathy on you. They will kill you. So while you are sitting in that closet or bathroom waiting and praying not to be found, I am yelling at you through the screen. If you would have listened to me in the first place, you may be alive long enough to make at least 7 more sequels to the move you are in. I was watching the end of one of the Halloweens the other night ( yes like 5 minutes of it and I still freaked out trying to go to bed ) and the little girl hid in the attic in a coffin. Really? I guess you knew you were going to die so you go one and put yourself in a coffin? Geez people..
But I guess when it comes to the ultimate scary movie for me it has to be " It. " Why I have watched this, I will never know. I dont even know how I made it though it. Its a known fact that my sister and I are scared of clowns. This was waaay before I saw this movie. ( I dont even like Ronald McDonald! ) I remember not being able to ride my book past a storm drain and not go the other side of the road so his face wouldnt pop up with a balloon. And I couldnt look down the sink drain because I was afraid a balloon would pop up and burst with blood going everywhere. That move did it for me. Although the ending was pretty dumb, I cant watch even a minute of it to this day. I can take most Stephen King movies because a lot of them , now , are just dumb ( although Im pretty sure back then was creepy ).
So I hope everyone enjoys their Halloween and if you are into scary movies, then this is definitely your time of year! Happy Halloween everybody!
I really just dont like the unexpected. Give me a movie of nothing but gore and I can handle it but give me a movie where people jump out all of the time and I lose it. I always joked and said someone could make a movie, with nothing but ordinary people, like you and me, in plain clothes and just have them jumping out behind things and I would scream. I guarantee you I would have a hard time getting out of my bed in the middle of the night without looking around and swearing I hear things in the house. Too bad my bladder makes me get up at the moment!
I think I am just too analytical when it comes to some of these movies. People always told me that you should be scared of the ones that could really happen and not the ones that are stupid but indeed scare me the most of all. You cant tell me that doll running around with a kitchen knife and kills people isnt going to scare you. The first time I even saw a scene from that was when I was little. It was sort of by accident. All of those shows come on around Halloween and I think I must have been flipping channels and there was it. And I actually remember having a conversation with my Kid Sister doll at the time. ( At this point, I did not know that the Chucky doll was based off the My Buddy doll, who I am guessing was Kid Sisters brother) I remember picking her up and telling her how much I loved playing with her but if she was going to kill me or anyone else, I would not be like that little kid. I would not continue to be her friend and I would have to do away with her. I dont think I ever played with her again after that night. And to come think about it. that may have given a doll reason to come to life... ooh Im glad I wasnt that smart back then!
And while we are on the stupidness of movies, why do people when getting chased always go to the one part of the house they cant escape. If I saw someone coming at me, my butt would be out that door and gone! I dont think I would go upstairs or into a closet or in a bathroom or downstairs where I couldnt get out. Thats what I mean by being too analytical. I just scream at the people for not thinking about it before they start to run. No matter where you hide, they are going to find you. And they are not going to have sympathy on you. They will kill you. So while you are sitting in that closet or bathroom waiting and praying not to be found, I am yelling at you through the screen. If you would have listened to me in the first place, you may be alive long enough to make at least 7 more sequels to the move you are in. I was watching the end of one of the Halloweens the other night ( yes like 5 minutes of it and I still freaked out trying to go to bed ) and the little girl hid in the attic in a coffin. Really? I guess you knew you were going to die so you go one and put yourself in a coffin? Geez people..
But I guess when it comes to the ultimate scary movie for me it has to be " It. " Why I have watched this, I will never know. I dont even know how I made it though it. Its a known fact that my sister and I are scared of clowns. This was waaay before I saw this movie. ( I dont even like Ronald McDonald! ) I remember not being able to ride my book past a storm drain and not go the other side of the road so his face wouldnt pop up with a balloon. And I couldnt look down the sink drain because I was afraid a balloon would pop up and burst with blood going everywhere. That move did it for me. Although the ending was pretty dumb, I cant watch even a minute of it to this day. I can take most Stephen King movies because a lot of them , now , are just dumb ( although Im pretty sure back then was creepy ).
So I hope everyone enjoys their Halloween and if you are into scary movies, then this is definitely your time of year! Happy Halloween everybody!
Thursday, October 25, 2012
So the secret is out!
Yes, for those of you faithfully facebook followers and my family and my friends... I am in deed with child, have a bun in the oven, am preggo, am pregnant.. you get the point. Either way, I am super excited! Now it did take me a while to write this because I had so many emotions running through my head and this post would have been a mess. There have been bad emotions and good emotions. ( Its all good now though ). I do express myself a whole lot better when I write ( or type ) so this is for you and me in a way.
I first found out actually on my sister's birthday. I had a hunch but thought my body was still healing so maybe thats why I was late. After the first one came my faintly positive, I waited a couple of more days and then did 2 more which came out a little more positive. I immediately told Ramon and then that same morning I had my checkup with my infectious doctor. He added the HCG blood test to my regular test and the nurse called me and confirmed that I was indeed pregnant that afternoon. Long story short, my baby doctor did 2 more blood tests to make sure the numbers were doubling and they more than tripled! Great news! So our first ultrasound is on my mom's birthday which is November 5th. Im nervous because of everything I have went through but so far so good. Ramon is nervous as well but we are both counting down the days to make sure everything is good!
I am the most impatient person out there. I know the myth. You arent supposed to break the news until you are least past your first trimester. With Drew, I told everyone as soon as the stick turned positive. I think with your first one, you are just so happy that the myth sort of gets ignored. I remember a lot of friends telling people as soon as they peed on the stick! I think maybe you should wait just in case something does happen ( like my miscarriage in Jan ) however I dont think telling people beforehand is going to cause something to happen. So either way, we told. Ramon would have waited, but I couldnt keep it in anymore. Every morning that I woke up, I got more excited. My face was a tell tell that something was up. In fact, I tried to stay away from my parents even because they can read me like a book. Luckily they went to GA so I could hide it on Skype.. lol. I did tell my sister first and then my aunt and then he told his brother. Then from there, we waited and told the rest of the family ( parents included on the car home from GA.. maybe not such a good idea ) and then took a cute pic and announced it on Facebook=)
As far as reactions go.. there were quite a mix. Given that I had been so sick about 2 months ago, the thought of me carrying a life inside of me was quite a shock. Along with that shock came scared. Now dont get me wrong, I was scared too. Here I thought God had given me another chance at life and the fact though that he is given me a life to carry is just a miracle to me. I still believe that God never gives you anything that you can't handle. Was it a bad timing... yes. Was I scared at first.. yes. Was I shocked.. yes and all above. BUT am I happy now... yes. So for everyone who is doubting this I just have to believe that they will come around eventually. I know they will.. they have to. There is really nothing they or I can do about it.
So we just look forward to what God had given us and take each day at a time. I know he is there and will never leave us. In my time of doubts and fears is when I pray the most. However I pray each day that he takes care of not only my soon to be little one that he looks over my family as well and gives them the strength to face the future with us. We need all of the support we can get=)
Until next time..
=)
I first found out actually on my sister's birthday. I had a hunch but thought my body was still healing so maybe thats why I was late. After the first one came my faintly positive, I waited a couple of more days and then did 2 more which came out a little more positive. I immediately told Ramon and then that same morning I had my checkup with my infectious doctor. He added the HCG blood test to my regular test and the nurse called me and confirmed that I was indeed pregnant that afternoon. Long story short, my baby doctor did 2 more blood tests to make sure the numbers were doubling and they more than tripled! Great news! So our first ultrasound is on my mom's birthday which is November 5th. Im nervous because of everything I have went through but so far so good. Ramon is nervous as well but we are both counting down the days to make sure everything is good!
I am the most impatient person out there. I know the myth. You arent supposed to break the news until you are least past your first trimester. With Drew, I told everyone as soon as the stick turned positive. I think with your first one, you are just so happy that the myth sort of gets ignored. I remember a lot of friends telling people as soon as they peed on the stick! I think maybe you should wait just in case something does happen ( like my miscarriage in Jan ) however I dont think telling people beforehand is going to cause something to happen. So either way, we told. Ramon would have waited, but I couldnt keep it in anymore. Every morning that I woke up, I got more excited. My face was a tell tell that something was up. In fact, I tried to stay away from my parents even because they can read me like a book. Luckily they went to GA so I could hide it on Skype.. lol. I did tell my sister first and then my aunt and then he told his brother. Then from there, we waited and told the rest of the family ( parents included on the car home from GA.. maybe not such a good idea ) and then took a cute pic and announced it on Facebook=)
As far as reactions go.. there were quite a mix. Given that I had been so sick about 2 months ago, the thought of me carrying a life inside of me was quite a shock. Along with that shock came scared. Now dont get me wrong, I was scared too. Here I thought God had given me another chance at life and the fact though that he is given me a life to carry is just a miracle to me. I still believe that God never gives you anything that you can't handle. Was it a bad timing... yes. Was I scared at first.. yes. Was I shocked.. yes and all above. BUT am I happy now... yes. So for everyone who is doubting this I just have to believe that they will come around eventually. I know they will.. they have to. There is really nothing they or I can do about it.
So we just look forward to what God had given us and take each day at a time. I know he is there and will never leave us. In my time of doubts and fears is when I pray the most. However I pray each day that he takes care of not only my soon to be little one that he looks over my family as well and gives them the strength to face the future with us. We need all of the support we can get=)
Until next time..
=)
Friday, October 19, 2012
What to Write About...
I know , I know it has been a while. But I really have bombarded you all lately complaining about health and just common life issues, that I thought I would give you all a break. So the since last time I wrote, nothing new or big has happened. Just the same old, had another surgery, put another stent in, and still with the PICC line and on meds. Work is going great and everything else seems to finally be falling into place. God is really working in our little family and I love seeing it each and everyday. Don't get me wrong, things arent perfect and they never will be, but finally I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have my doctors appt on Tuesday with my infectious doctor and hopefully I will end the medicine and get this line out. Then, I really will see the light!
I guess the big thing everything is talking about is the election. I try not to get into this. I know who I am voting for and I vote every year. I know why I am voting the way I am but other than that, I am probably the most non political person I know. ( Im voting for Romney, so there ya go ) I have watched all of the debates and tried to listen to the issues that effect me and my family the most. Its not really going to sway my vote but its nice to hear what they plan on doing.
One thing I will say on the election note is though the one thing I cant stand is after the election, the way people still bash the person who won. I did not vote for Obama and I really did not like it when he won, however, I still respect that position. I didnt say that I respect him that much or his stance on certain issues, but I still pray for him and our country's leadership. Whether I liked it or not, he was going to be leading my country for the next 4 years ( hopefully that will be it ) and even though I disagree, I still pray and have to live with the decision he makes. It does nobody any good to make bumper stickers or post all over Facebook how their nominee was the best choice and then bash the person that one. For one, if you didnt vote, I dont think you have the right to say anything and two, its over. Saying bad things about the other people just make you look bad and says a lot about your attitude and personality. And personally, I dont think the other candidates would like to think that you are somehow representing them. But Im getting off of this horse.. dont judge me.. its just my opinion.
I am starting to make my Master To Do List and do this overhaul of our house. I had actually started it before I got sick and just didnt make it very far. When I get in this mood though, ( the if I havent seen it and I find it and havent used it, its get thrown away or sold or donated mood ) I can usually get it done pretty quick. Drew is so cute helping me too. I usually have piles or boxes or bags or something I put things in. Only problem is, he will put them in there and then decide that he does need it and keeps it. I have found stuff tucked away in the garage or his play room or his room when all along I thought I got rid of it. His toy room does need a haul over but of course as much as he says he doensnt play with something anymore and he wants to donate them, he will decide of course that he does play with it. So that will get done when hes not around. I love the fact that the people that lived here before us, never parked their car in the garage and its clean so it makes a perfect playroom=)
Other than that, everything is good.. I will write soon!
I guess the big thing everything is talking about is the election. I try not to get into this. I know who I am voting for and I vote every year. I know why I am voting the way I am but other than that, I am probably the most non political person I know. ( Im voting for Romney, so there ya go ) I have watched all of the debates and tried to listen to the issues that effect me and my family the most. Its not really going to sway my vote but its nice to hear what they plan on doing.
One thing I will say on the election note is though the one thing I cant stand is after the election, the way people still bash the person who won. I did not vote for Obama and I really did not like it when he won, however, I still respect that position. I didnt say that I respect him that much or his stance on certain issues, but I still pray for him and our country's leadership. Whether I liked it or not, he was going to be leading my country for the next 4 years ( hopefully that will be it ) and even though I disagree, I still pray and have to live with the decision he makes. It does nobody any good to make bumper stickers or post all over Facebook how their nominee was the best choice and then bash the person that one. For one, if you didnt vote, I dont think you have the right to say anything and two, its over. Saying bad things about the other people just make you look bad and says a lot about your attitude and personality. And personally, I dont think the other candidates would like to think that you are somehow representing them. But Im getting off of this horse.. dont judge me.. its just my opinion.
I am starting to make my Master To Do List and do this overhaul of our house. I had actually started it before I got sick and just didnt make it very far. When I get in this mood though, ( the if I havent seen it and I find it and havent used it, its get thrown away or sold or donated mood ) I can usually get it done pretty quick. Drew is so cute helping me too. I usually have piles or boxes or bags or something I put things in. Only problem is, he will put them in there and then decide that he does need it and keeps it. I have found stuff tucked away in the garage or his play room or his room when all along I thought I got rid of it. His toy room does need a haul over but of course as much as he says he doensnt play with something anymore and he wants to donate them, he will decide of course that he does play with it. So that will get done when hes not around. I love the fact that the people that lived here before us, never parked their car in the garage and its clean so it makes a perfect playroom=)
Other than that, everything is good.. I will write soon!
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Reality TV
So I cant sleep.. again big surprise! So as I am laying in bed trying to get to sleep, my mind starts acting up again. How did people get along without DVR? Its funny because I remember my mom used to have to tape everything and set the time on the vcr. And if we missed a show, we just did. Now its we forgot to set the DVR so we missed a show. Oh well.. theres always Hulu and the channels website it came on. But tv back then was sooo much better, ever without the fancy equipment. I remember TGIF and sitcoms like " Full House", "Step By Step" and " Boy Meets World. Even after they were done there are to this day repeats that they show. ( I know Boy Meets World did because I practically watched every episode and yes I still cry on the episode ) Now we are filled with sitcoms about stuff that I wouldnt dare let Drew watch. Which gets me to tonight's topic : Realty TV
Seriously? I think that is half of my DVR recordings if not more at times. I dont really count things like cooking shows. But I do Keep up with the Kardashians, And anything on TLC.. And some other shows. But that is all people talk about these days. I bet you could come up with an original idea for reality tv, some hot shot would go along with it and you would have made money. I really cant think of any subject that is not covered realty tv in some matter.
Randomness.... why is it every pen in front of me has dried up? So annoying...=)
And we pour our heart and soul to the people on these shows. Then we feel like we know them personaly.
( Dont You ) So when something bad happens, you feel liek you have experienced it as well. With the ratings though, they look they are here to stay and all a couple more in before the end of the year. But back to the DVR, Im thankful for it=) And so is my son who can watch his shows anytime!
=)
Seriously? I think that is half of my DVR recordings if not more at times. I dont really count things like cooking shows. But I do Keep up with the Kardashians, And anything on TLC.. And some other shows. But that is all people talk about these days. I bet you could come up with an original idea for reality tv, some hot shot would go along with it and you would have made money. I really cant think of any subject that is not covered realty tv in some matter.
Randomness.... why is it every pen in front of me has dried up? So annoying...=)
And we pour our heart and soul to the people on these shows. Then we feel like we know them personaly.
( Dont You ) So when something bad happens, you feel liek you have experienced it as well. With the ratings though, they look they are here to stay and all a couple more in before the end of the year. But back to the DVR, Im thankful for it=) And so is my son who can watch his shows anytime!
=)
Sleeping Beauty.. Minus the Sleeping
A natural periodic state of rest for the mind and body, in which the eyes usually close and consciousness is completely or partially lost, so that there is a decrease in bodily movement and responsiveness to external stimuli. During sleep the brain in humans and other mammals undergoes a characteristic cycle of brain-wave activity that includes intervals of dreaming.
That is the definition of sleep. Only I have not known that in quite sometime. There is nothing worse that laying in the bed tossing and turning ( especially when your husband is snoring so loudly!! ) and trying to get some sleep. I envy those who can just lay down at night and conk out. Did I miss something? Did my body miss that message that says.. hey when it gets dark outside and Im laying flat that mean go to sleep! Oh if I only could trade in my body with someone who is healthy. ( Although I can tell you what sitcoms are on and what times )
Random thought-- did you notice the name of this blog and my name is MusicalBAG? Huh.. a bag that is musical! ( Sorry )
So this non sleepiness has had me tired the last couple of days. And I am ready for it to be over with.
2nd Ramon thought - Ramon just read my last post and he claims he did not hijack the tv and he was not chicken... Read the previous post and you will get this. ( Sorry 2x )
And I as I lay there in bed, I start thinking about all of these random things. I mean random and weird. And they will bug me until I just let it go. For example, how did we become so addicted to Facebook? ( Guilty as charged ) Dont get me wrong, I love it. I just cant go a day without looking at the status updates. It can be good, it can be bad and get you in some trouble. I can actually follow some peoples' days from start to finish, what they did, where they went, how their day was and all of their meals they ate. While that is interesting enough, is there really a need for that? One thing I like about it though is that it is a good way of staying in touch with friends and family I have relatives that live out of town so its nice to see their posts and pictures. I do post status updates but they usually have sense to them. One other good thing is that though while I was in the hospital with that infection, my sister and Ramon kept everyone updated through Facebook. It saved them a lot of phone calls and test messages.
Random thought - I HATE restless legs and once again something else that keeps me up. ( Sorry 3x )
The sad part is that I have been on Facebook so long, ( since 2005 ) that I still log in with my EKU email. And status updates or apps didnt really exist. It was strictly finding friends and looking at their pics and what they are doing now. It has come a loong way. Some of the best things to read though is when someone posts something maybe a little controversial and then you get a fight back and forth either agreeing or disagreeing with the post. This time of year is bad for that due to the Presidential Election coming up. Its good to read though and get both sides to the story..
Speaking of politics.. no Im not gonna write a page and tell why I am voting the way I am. I am Republican so that should give you hint. And I will go vote. But the commercials have go to go. Thank goodness for DVR. I wish they would just say what their plans are instead of bashing the other. And I am not talking about just the President part but the local parts as well. I just have to pray that the nation will make a good decision. No matter who wins, I will still pray for them. I hold an utterly high respect for people in power. Democrat or Republican. Once that decision is made,people just need to accept it and pray for them. Our country is probably not in the best shape across the board but we cant blame anyone for that. ( Dont you remember, the President really has no power anyhow! ) May the best candidate win and God lead us as a nation to make that decision.
So I know this is probably long winded but I am trying to fight my restless legs ( yes they are bad ) And I am enjoying the peace and quiet in our office. So I am going to leave you with a couple more random thoughts. =)
1. Why do we search for the tv remote for hours sometimes when we could just get up and change the channel ourselves? ( Although, most people couldnt do this because they have satellite or some sort of cable that only changes the tv and then you have to figure out which channel you had it on.. and while you are doing this Im sure the remote control is hiding laughing at you )
2. Why am I the only one in the household that will clean out the " guts " inside of a pumpkin? Drew and Ramon both wont touch it. So I get the lovely job of doing it.
3. I am a sparatic cleaner. For example , I will start picking up Drew's toys from the living room and take them to his playroom or bedroom. And then I will start cleaning that room that I am in although I havent finished that other room. I figure I have something out of place in every room so eventually every room will be cleaned even if it is spurts.
4. Why does my son love to scrub toilets? He gets so mad when I clean them and he did get to. Im such a bad mom =)
5. What is the use if ragweed> Just to annoy me I guess. This is the only time of year that I cant stay outside but for maybe an hour ( or shorter ) We can get rid of that. Thank you.
That is the definition of sleep. Only I have not known that in quite sometime. There is nothing worse that laying in the bed tossing and turning ( especially when your husband is snoring so loudly!! ) and trying to get some sleep. I envy those who can just lay down at night and conk out. Did I miss something? Did my body miss that message that says.. hey when it gets dark outside and Im laying flat that mean go to sleep! Oh if I only could trade in my body with someone who is healthy. ( Although I can tell you what sitcoms are on and what times )
Random thought-- did you notice the name of this blog and my name is MusicalBAG? Huh.. a bag that is musical! ( Sorry )
So this non sleepiness has had me tired the last couple of days. And I am ready for it to be over with.
2nd Ramon thought - Ramon just read my last post and he claims he did not hijack the tv and he was not chicken... Read the previous post and you will get this. ( Sorry 2x )
And I as I lay there in bed, I start thinking about all of these random things. I mean random and weird. And they will bug me until I just let it go. For example, how did we become so addicted to Facebook? ( Guilty as charged ) Dont get me wrong, I love it. I just cant go a day without looking at the status updates. It can be good, it can be bad and get you in some trouble. I can actually follow some peoples' days from start to finish, what they did, where they went, how their day was and all of their meals they ate. While that is interesting enough, is there really a need for that? One thing I like about it though is that it is a good way of staying in touch with friends and family I have relatives that live out of town so its nice to see their posts and pictures. I do post status updates but they usually have sense to them. One other good thing is that though while I was in the hospital with that infection, my sister and Ramon kept everyone updated through Facebook. It saved them a lot of phone calls and test messages.
Random thought - I HATE restless legs and once again something else that keeps me up. ( Sorry 3x )
The sad part is that I have been on Facebook so long, ( since 2005 ) that I still log in with my EKU email. And status updates or apps didnt really exist. It was strictly finding friends and looking at their pics and what they are doing now. It has come a loong way. Some of the best things to read though is when someone posts something maybe a little controversial and then you get a fight back and forth either agreeing or disagreeing with the post. This time of year is bad for that due to the Presidential Election coming up. Its good to read though and get both sides to the story..
Speaking of politics.. no Im not gonna write a page and tell why I am voting the way I am. I am Republican so that should give you hint. And I will go vote. But the commercials have go to go. Thank goodness for DVR. I wish they would just say what their plans are instead of bashing the other. And I am not talking about just the President part but the local parts as well. I just have to pray that the nation will make a good decision. No matter who wins, I will still pray for them. I hold an utterly high respect for people in power. Democrat or Republican. Once that decision is made,people just need to accept it and pray for them. Our country is probably not in the best shape across the board but we cant blame anyone for that. ( Dont you remember, the President really has no power anyhow! ) May the best candidate win and God lead us as a nation to make that decision.
So I know this is probably long winded but I am trying to fight my restless legs ( yes they are bad ) And I am enjoying the peace and quiet in our office. So I am going to leave you with a couple more random thoughts. =)
1. Why do we search for the tv remote for hours sometimes when we could just get up and change the channel ourselves? ( Although, most people couldnt do this because they have satellite or some sort of cable that only changes the tv and then you have to figure out which channel you had it on.. and while you are doing this Im sure the remote control is hiding laughing at you )
2. Why am I the only one in the household that will clean out the " guts " inside of a pumpkin? Drew and Ramon both wont touch it. So I get the lovely job of doing it.
3. I am a sparatic cleaner. For example , I will start picking up Drew's toys from the living room and take them to his playroom or bedroom. And then I will start cleaning that room that I am in although I havent finished that other room. I figure I have something out of place in every room so eventually every room will be cleaned even if it is spurts.
4. Why does my son love to scrub toilets? He gets so mad when I clean them and he did get to. Im such a bad mom =)
5. What is the use if ragweed> Just to annoy me I guess. This is the only time of year that I cant stay outside but for maybe an hour ( or shorter ) We can get rid of that. Thank you.
How Did I Get Here?
I guess it's sort of unfair to start a blog without telling how I got here. I think my whole blog started with me almost dying. Thats great LOL.
So how did my wonderful journey start? Well on June 12, 1982 I was born to a wonderful set of parents here in the lovely town of Winchester. Oh yea and my older sis. I was blessed to grow up with a big loving family and I am forever thankful for them.
My life was pretty tame and it stayed that way up until about 2007. I was married in 2005 to my high school sweetheart and then in in June 2007 found out we were pregnant. On December 11 2007 I gave birth to my son Andrew Christopher Frasure. Yes he was early. Really early. I had some complications and Drew also wasnt growing as he should have. As you can see in the pics from the earlier posts, he was a huge whoppin 3lbs 1 oz. Actually got down to under 3 lbs at one point.He stayed in the NICU and was released one day before he turned a month old. We went over on care times and helped do everything for him. He is my little miracle=) Now you cant tell he was that tiny when he was born.
Now the hard part... after getting back home, I got some um.. well .. news about my husband ( then ). Lets just say we have every right to get divorced according to the Bible. If you know me, you know what I am talking about. This is a time in my life that I will not ever forget but also have no regrets. I put in soo much time and energy to save or marriage but he was done. So after about a year, our divorce was final. I went through so much crap during that time though. Most of the time when this happens to a couple, they split and dont ever talk anymore, but in my case we had a child and he is a good father so I still had to see him. Some days I just wanted to hit him, other days I just wanted him back. I think, though, right after filing the papers, it all started to look up. I didnt need or want him if he didnt want the same thing.
Now the happy part... Ramon and I had crushes on each other during 4th and 5th grades. I played basketball where his stepfather coached so I still got to see him some even though we didnt go to the same middle school. I also saw him at some family functions because his cousin and me were best friends. So I sang at weddings and help throw wedding and baby showers. About December he sent a friend request through Facebook. ( I would find out later this was only because he was too chicken to ask me in the first place NOT over Facebook.. ha ha .. ) So on January 9 we had our first date and then the rest is history. We got engaged on May 24 and then went to Las Vegas Sept 5 and got married ( no we didnt elope, it was planned )
Looking back, I didnt know why God was doing what he did. It hurt so bad. But now I have a husband who loves me unconditionally no matter what and I love him just the same. He is great other father figure in Drew's life and that was and still is the most important thing. It was hard to bring someone in that Drew didnt know. Luckily he caught on real quick and Ramon has a true deep love for him as well.
I wouldnt change a thing. I wish I could go back and tell myself that everything was working in God's time. I just wanted it to happen before he did. My ex and get along and I consider him a friend. For Drew's sake it is best we keep a neutral ground with each other.
So now I sit here in the office ( as Ramon as hijaked the tv with Transformers : Dark Moon ) ( And yes he has seen it a thousand times ) ( And no I dont care for it ) I think about how lucky and blessed I am. I feel like I have been given a second chance at life ( after my little infection stunt.. okay so not so little ) It is true what they say, you should live every day as if it was your last. Im trying=) And I have a great support system to make sure that I am.
=)
So how did my wonderful journey start? Well on June 12, 1982 I was born to a wonderful set of parents here in the lovely town of Winchester. Oh yea and my older sis. I was blessed to grow up with a big loving family and I am forever thankful for them.
My life was pretty tame and it stayed that way up until about 2007. I was married in 2005 to my high school sweetheart and then in in June 2007 found out we were pregnant. On December 11 2007 I gave birth to my son Andrew Christopher Frasure. Yes he was early. Really early. I had some complications and Drew also wasnt growing as he should have. As you can see in the pics from the earlier posts, he was a huge whoppin 3lbs 1 oz. Actually got down to under 3 lbs at one point.He stayed in the NICU and was released one day before he turned a month old. We went over on care times and helped do everything for him. He is my little miracle=) Now you cant tell he was that tiny when he was born.
Now the hard part... after getting back home, I got some um.. well .. news about my husband ( then ). Lets just say we have every right to get divorced according to the Bible. If you know me, you know what I am talking about. This is a time in my life that I will not ever forget but also have no regrets. I put in soo much time and energy to save or marriage but he was done. So after about a year, our divorce was final. I went through so much crap during that time though. Most of the time when this happens to a couple, they split and dont ever talk anymore, but in my case we had a child and he is a good father so I still had to see him. Some days I just wanted to hit him, other days I just wanted him back. I think, though, right after filing the papers, it all started to look up. I didnt need or want him if he didnt want the same thing.
Now the happy part... Ramon and I had crushes on each other during 4th and 5th grades. I played basketball where his stepfather coached so I still got to see him some even though we didnt go to the same middle school. I also saw him at some family functions because his cousin and me were best friends. So I sang at weddings and help throw wedding and baby showers. About December he sent a friend request through Facebook. ( I would find out later this was only because he was too chicken to ask me in the first place NOT over Facebook.. ha ha .. ) So on January 9 we had our first date and then the rest is history. We got engaged on May 24 and then went to Las Vegas Sept 5 and got married ( no we didnt elope, it was planned )
Looking back, I didnt know why God was doing what he did. It hurt so bad. But now I have a husband who loves me unconditionally no matter what and I love him just the same. He is great other father figure in Drew's life and that was and still is the most important thing. It was hard to bring someone in that Drew didnt know. Luckily he caught on real quick and Ramon has a true deep love for him as well.
I wouldnt change a thing. I wish I could go back and tell myself that everything was working in God's time. I just wanted it to happen before he did. My ex and get along and I consider him a friend. For Drew's sake it is best we keep a neutral ground with each other.
So now I sit here in the office ( as Ramon as hijaked the tv with Transformers : Dark Moon ) ( And yes he has seen it a thousand times ) ( And no I dont care for it ) I think about how lucky and blessed I am. I feel like I have been given a second chance at life ( after my little infection stunt.. okay so not so little ) It is true what they say, you should live every day as if it was your last. Im trying=) And I have a great support system to make sure that I am.
=)
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