With everything I have went through you would think " Thankful" would be the last title for this blog. People this time of year always posts what they are thankful for. And while I have not participated this year, does not mean I am not thankful for anything but I think I am just to thankful for everything. God, family, friends and life itself. When you start getting into specifics it would take more than a month for me to write them all down. To be honest , except for the last week when I was hooked up in the hospital , I have sat down at this computer trying to think what to write about. And this morning, I guess I will take a shot.
God has given me a lot of hills and mountains to get over the last couple of months. But in return, he has given me the strength and resources to get through them. It is like they say, God will never give you more than you can handle. He has also provided me with a church and a loving small group and a wonderful music minister who has given me the chance to share my talents with the church. This has been a blessing in itself. Its so great to know that these people are praying for you and are there for you whenever you need them. He has given me family. A wonderful and supportive husband and parents who have been there from day 1. I am so blessed to have such wonderful parents who love me unconditionally and show me everyday. My son who just a hug and I love you mommy lights up my world. And grandparents who would do anything to take this pain away from me.
You would think with all of this that going through the miscarriage and the hospital stay that I would be good as new. But Im not. Im so emotionally wrecked that I just want to crawl up somewhere and stay. And I know that is when I need God and everyone the most. But no matter the amount of hugs or thoughts sometimes I think you just need time to heal. I think I have let myself cover everything up that I havent given myself time for that. So as I pour myself into getting my house back into order, if I cry, I cry. If I just want to go be by myself in the back, I will. But most of all, my quiet time with God is growing and I start on yet another adventure back to normal, if there is such a thing, I just have to remember to breathe and to love God and my life. And to be thankful=)
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