Unemployed and well you know..

Well I write this blog from the good old Microsoft Office 2010. Im not on my online blog tonight due to our phones and internet not working. I wont say why but I will let you guess. I also start the new year out as unemployed. If I could tell you why I would but I really don’t know. I guess God didn’t want me there. All I know is it has a put a stop in our lives. I now know how it feels to not want to get the mail because I know there is going to be a bill in there that we cant pay right now. I have doctor’s appointments coming up and more tests and another surgery to get this final stent out. So I really cannot start the job search until at least next month. So we are hanging by a thread. I don’t write this for sympathy or anything else. I just feel to be honest with you all. It seems like I have a lot of readers that follow me so why not tell them the truth. The last part of the year to say the least was sort of hard. I spent some more time in the hospital and got sick again. Had the surgery to put the huge bulging stent in. I did however bring in the new year with some family and friends. I actually was not sick that night and had a great time. It was a time I could put everything behind me. Christmas Eve I had the privilege of singing with a great group of people at Calvary. That night was a good night and special. Even though Ramon was the only one that got to attend ( my family was hosting Christmas Eve and couldn’t get away) both services got to me. Its those songs that stay in my head as I go through what I am now. I know I am going from year to year here with information but I guess that is what happens when you cant sleep and its midnight and you haven’t written in a while. My head is full of stuff and I guess you all get the brunt of that stuff here in the next couple of days. I will be writing and posting these so you all are going to get hit when we get the internet back. Anyhow..

Christmas was great. We had to wake Drew up and watch him drag his body through the kitchen but as soon as he saw that 4 wheeler he took off. It was amazing and no camera could have caught that joy in his eye as he saw the presents and the cookies ate and the water drank ( parents fault….. out of milk.. but we decided Santa needed some water instead ). That’s what makes it. Ramon got me a charm bracelet with a music note on it. I got him some things but watching him open his Panini maker was cracking me up. It was just like watching Drew open his presents. We spent most of the day with family and then came home with just us two. It was nice. The only thing I missed was seeing my sister. This was usually the time of year they came in. But they decided not to this year. It is hard bussing up 3 kids and driving almost 10 -12 hours depending on how many stops they had to make. And when they get here there are so  many people to see its like they don’t stop. I hardly ever get to see her even when she is here. That brings me to one of the most precious gifts I got. I got her a sister charm for her bracelet. She got me a half of a ring, and she has the other half. And inside it is engraved, my sister, my friend. I haven’t taken it off since Christmas. I miss her and the kids so much and sometimes I just need my sister here but I know she is a phone call away. Hopefully we can make it down to see them soon.

Until then, I am playing housewife ( oh yeah lost my job... ) . The bills will come and they will stay. I leave it to God’s hands to show me exactly what to do .