So my charger is still kaput and thats why the blog posts have been coming slower and slower. There is so much that has changed since my last post that I cant even remember what I posted last time. But I can assure you that the last post, I had 2 kidneys, in now which I only have 1. After some thinking and another annoying infection, it was time to get it out. So on Oct 6, out it came. In all of its glory. It was inflammed and was well quite ugly. And oh did I mention the day before, I had to move out of my house into my parents while I am on leave and off work. But I can assure you as soon as I get well and back to to work and back with money, Im looking for a place.
Yes I am still with the same guy. I wish in a way, we could fast forward our relationship or have this had happened way into our relationship so maybe getting a place together would seem not such a bad idea. To be prefectly honest, I dont know what or where I am going to be in 6 months, but I would hope, still with Eric, and a house or a townhouse and the same job. I say the same job just because I really like it. Lets just say what it is, My happily ever after went out the door years ago. Every little girls perfect dream life isnt mine anymore. It just had to have some tweaking done to it. And it is still well in the works. I dont know what my happily ever after is anymore. All I know is I hope it includes some of whats going on on now and the people in it. Its funny how your whole perspective can change after such a dramatic change in your life. I just want it balanced and normal for once. Now that I think my health is getting that way, its just the other things that God has to put in place for me.
So Eric. I try to keep some things to myself and out of the public eye just until Im sure. I would hate to post something and then have it all untrue by the next post. So from my view, he was very unexpected. I mean, I thought I would date here and there but I never thought I would fall for someone, just that one person, so quick. But it wasnt like I could help it. I would say he even tried to push me away and I think in a way we both just knew it wasnt going to stay that way. For once, I wasnt going to back down from something I liked having in my life. I had learned at that point that life was too short and I liked having him around, so why not fight for it. Well I guess fate gave in, because well 3 months later, hes still around. And I like having him around. My parents seem to like him and Drew as well. So I guess that passes the test. The one thing I have learned is that we are totally different people.I am so outwards with my feelings and he is not. However we have come to some sort of equal so its working. And I guess we will leave it at that. He is not from here so I havent the chance of meeting the rest of his family ( only his brother ) I am looking forward to it. A bit nervous I have to say but I guess as long as I am myself, they can either like me or not like me. Of course, Im going with the I hope they like me because I really like Eric. And if anything I hope they see that I have only the best interest at heart when it comes to him, I have been hurt so bad in the past that doing something to hurt him, I would never do. And I think its the same with him. He honestly, has become someone I can talk to about anything and thats what I look for in a person. He knows about my past and passes no judgement and thats important to me. He likes me for me and not for what descriptions may be floating above my head.. There are so many ways to describe me that I have given up. All I know is what I have overcome and what God has put me through to get me to this point. I am happy again.
I am finding who I was before. And Im not letting someone or some guy define that.
So who knows where this blog will be in 6 months. All I know is for right now, at this very moment. I am one happy girl. And I have a lot to be thankful for. =)
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