By the age of 13, you are a teenager. You start to see things differently and feel as if you are an adult. You start to claim your own identity and have your group of friends. You start to mold your future with the choices you make.
By the age of 16, you finally have freedom. You have your own car. For some, you have your own job which brings responsibility yet now you have money. You begin spending your weekends with your friends instead of your house. You may begin to have your first dates and dread that time when you have to ask you parents if you can go out. And if you are a boy, you are dreading picking up that girl for the first time and meeting the parents.
At the age of 18, you are of out of high school and off to college or for some, off to a job. You are an adult and can make your own decisions. You have your own money, your own place. You are finally out on your own. And here is where you make decisions to that will shape your future forever. What major you will be, where you will live, what friends you will make, and you may meet that certain someone. That certain someone in which you will spend the rest of you life with.
And on it goes. In a perfect world, you will graduate college with the major you want. Get the perfect job, marry the person of your dreams, buy a house and eventually start a family. Isn't that the dream that everyone wants? At least for girls that is.
But sometimes, life throws you curveballs. You may not graduate. You may not get the perfect job. You may not marry anyone. You may end up back at your parents or just settling. It seems that life always has a funny way of working out the opposite way you always dreamed of. Of even if you do get a chance at that perfect dream, it may be get interrupted by losing a job, losing a house, or even losing your partner. It happens kids, it happens.
Its then we really learn who we are. Do we sit down and let life take over? Or do we stand up and go after what we want? Its these times that really determine who we are as a person and how others will perceive us.
I have been struggling these past few weeks with everything from being in the hospital again, facing kidney failure, job in limbo, no place of my own and everything just starts to compile. Why is it you can think of everything you have done wrong in your life and not anything positive? This is when your true character comes out. Now while I haven't really stood up to any of these problems, Im slowly regaining composure. There are still some dents in my life that I don't know will ever work themselves out but its these dents that I can go back to ago remind me that I overcame them. And while they are unbending, something happens. You begin to find yourself again. You begin to see things in a different light. And maybe the person you find, isn't the person you used to be, but better. The hardest thing I have learned is patience. It has never been a virtue of mine. But sometimes, you have to stand back and let things come to you. You have to let those dents start straightening out by trusting. By having faith. By knowing that someone is there to support you. By having that someone you can rely on and talk to. By learning who you are. And looking at those positives you do have in your life.
Its easy to type this but hard to actually say Im doing this. But Im trying. Each day Im trying. And whatever life may throw at me, Im ready. Bring it on!
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