So thats why?

"Everything happens for a reason." Its one of those phrases that you either believe or dont believe. Most of the time it is said to someone who is going through a hard time. I cant tell you how many times it was said to me and although the thoughts in my head were far from what I actually said, I just shook my head with a facial expression that Im sure said something else. But I was thinking about this today for some reason. Its funny to go back and think of all the bad things that have happened and what I actually gained from it. And then you can go back even further and even one different move in your past could have actually effected your whole life. So while that phrase can be a thorn in your side at the moment, it can actually help you also realize how you got to where you are. Now there are still some things that I dont understand and am still dealing with but for the most part, there are people in life now that I would have never had known if not for past events. And a lot of God has intervened and made it possible. For example, if I hadnt had of switched churches, I would have never helped out at VBS. Then I would have met two certain people and I would have never had been able to make such a good friend out of it. Also I would have never got the chance to attend this awesome Bible study we are doing and also I would have never met a pretty amazing guy. I could even go back further than that but to save you all from yawning I wont. I try not to say I regret whats happened in my past because it has made me the person I am today. All the tears and feeling alone were worth if it got me this far. God will never leave us alone but sometimes we have to go through trials to learn to depend on him. I look at what I have in my life right now. And who is in my life. And I dont try to ask why. I just say thank you. Because a lot of doubts and questions filled me before and now some of them are being answered and I owe nothing to myself but I owe it to God for reminding me that he is always there. And I dont know what plans he has for me. But I do know as long as trust and believe that he is able that everything will be okay=)