To Say Goodbye

My recording of this song! To Say Goodbye


Many and most of you all know I sing on an app. Well these apps run competitions and my for this week had to be a song performed by an original artist who had passed away. My mind drew a blank and I finally was like I am just gonna look up one and learn it. My mind went directly to Rory.  A dedicated mother, wife, and Christian who shared her battle with cancer, eventually losing her battle. The song When Im Gone is breathtaking but I wanted to learn something new. So I literally just closed my eyes and clicked. To Say Goodbye is a simple song. No complicated parts. And your standard, verse then chorus then verse then chorus a tag then the end. But the lyrics simply wowed me. If you have a chance the link above is my recording of it. And these are the lyrics:

He said "I'll call you hon when I get there"
Ten minutes later he was in the air
She dropped the kids at school and headed home
Walked in and turned the front room TV on

She could tell that there was something wrong
Every channel had the same thing on
Now seven years have come and gone away
But she's still hurtin' like it's yesterday...

'Cuz she wants to put her arms around his neck, and look in his eyes so blue
And say "Honey I don't regret a single day I spent with you"
She wants to tell him that she loves him so, and will until the day she dies
It ain't that she can't let him go, she just wants to say goodbye

He sits beside her in the nursing home
Through her silver hair, he runs a comb
He hangs their wedding picture on the wall
She don't remember who he is at all

He tells her stories 'bout the life they've lived
From their first kiss to their last grandkids
For seven months now she just sits and stares
But if she wakes up, he's gonna be right there...

'Cuz he wants to put his arms around her neck, and look in her eyes so blue
And say "Honey I won't forget a single day I've spent with you"
He wants to tell her that he loves her so, and will until the day he dies
It ain't that he can't let her go, he just wants to say goodbye

No, it ain't that we can't let 'em go... we just want to say goodbye

Music and lyrics have always been a part of me. I write songs from time to time just to express emotion. Like it becomes my escape. This song just struck a cord with me for some reason tonight. How true is this song? How many times do you wish you could have just said goodbye. And what if you had the chance but something got in the way and you didnt. I am one to try and take every moment I can to let those around me know how I feel. Having experienced that years ago, it opened a brand new light in my life. I try and not let moments pass. If I wanna see someone, I will do anything I can to make that happen. We hear it all the time. Nobody is guaranteed tomorrow. You never know when that moment is going to happen. Your phone rings. Or theres a knock at your door. Or even turning to social media to find out the news. Then your mind goes back to the last time you saw them or talked to them. What was that last moment you had with them? Did you skip out on a phone call or did you skip out on a time you could have spent time with them? I dont want to have those questions. I want to know that I did everything I could to nothing but be as good as them as I could have been. I dont want to kick myself for missing chances or missing time with them. We get so busy. Life in general takes over and we just put things off. We can do it tomorrow. Or we will do it next week. But next thing you know that day comes and while the other person waits, you're tired and you just dont have the time for them. When did life become so hectic that all of this material stuff comes before finding the time to be a mom, a friend, a daughter , a spouse... When did those things start to slip away. Sure, we have to work, We have to sleep. But did you ever think that even a phone call, a letter or even a text to say hey, just thinking about you. Do you know how meaningful those words can be to someone? We might not ever know. I have let friends come and go. And some of the best friends I have had. Just simply because someone else or something got in the way, Days turns into weeks and weeks turn into months and before you know it, its like wow, when is the last time I did talk to her?
Im as guilty as anyone. And its horrible to think that it takes something tragic to happen for it to open our eyes. Not tragic to someone else, but it has to personally happen to us. We all think we are safe. We all thing that it will never happen. But its simple we just dont know. So pick up the phone, write a letter, send a card or simply spend some time with a friend. Play that role in your life. Be that mom. Be that spouse. Be that friend. Just be that someone whose lifes are not filled with what ifs and regrets. Be that someone. 

Be you.